late night reflections

There are times when you ask for something from the Lord and when it is answered it makes you sad. Today is one of those days. It's not a bitter sad or one left of the embers of anger but a peaceful almost resolute kind of feeling but still resonating with the pangs of hope for what could have been but never will be. I know that it is what is right and what is best but i still can't help taking one last backward glance. It's not unlike the feeling of walking off the playground after not getting picked for dodge ball you can't help but look back at those happy smiling faces and wishing to be one of them but you continue your walk away regardless. But gladly the world is not all somber reflections and self pity, tonight was a fun and happy night proceeded by a day of equal amounts of joy and laughter and not a little dash of flirting from several sources all in all I'm going to bed with a smile on my face and excitement in my heart for the adventure tomorrow will be (giant dune water slides and a handsome date for the evening are the main attractions we shall see what happens in-between.) For now it's time for communion with one thing that knows all my secrets and dreams...my pillow.