Resilience

Stick to your guns, stand up for what you feel, fight for to be respected; all these sound so much easier to execute then they really are. All I want is to give in, turn over and appease. Where does this weakness stem from? And this indecision? Why do i crumble in the face of indifference? In real obvious confrontation i stand tall and strong but when there is ambiguity, when the situation is somewhat unclear, i vacillate between the options unsure of which is the appropriate route. Where to go from here i know the only real option is forward to let go of what is refuse and move forward hoping for what ma or may not ever be an option. I can't stand not having a plan, a goal, something to work toward. I loathe to be idol in my progression and so i will change my focus and choose to think of those things that i can control, the things that i can see an actual result in pursuing. Onward and upward through the long night of life.